matahari

me gusta.

2011-12-08T22:50:00.001-08:00

was in the friend zone.

made it through.

beautiful love story evar.

sobs.

2011-12-08T21:34:00.000-08:00

i think about you constantly.

it breaks my heart that you don't feel the same about me.

embedded in my heart and mind, all of our fond memories together.

rifdy. i really really really miss you.

friendship.

2011-12-02T10:46:00.000-08:00

i cried watching kim possible.

just because her friendship with ron is so strong and beautiful. the fact that it reminded me of myself and my ex-best friend.

rifdy, i miss you so so much.

spider panggang.

2011-12-02T04:53:00.000-08:00

aku sekarang dah ada permainan baru.

cerita dia macam ni. tengah kemas2 bilik dan lipat baju, muncul pulak seekor labah2 yang besar dia macam tarantula dalam mubi2 omputes.

selalunya aku tak heran labah2 kecik. tapi labah2 tu besar sangat. aku bingung sekejap. tak tahu macam mana nak setel.

aku tiba2 teringat post dalam 9gag

mata aku melilau dan tangan aku galak mencari...

...lighter dan spray deodorant. gua buat flame thrower bhai.

if i could only cry, i would have.

2011-12-01T10:51:00.000-08:00

it's funny how people you once loved and cared the most, just stopped talking to you.

it's funny how the cycle works. how we were strangers in the beginning, and became friends, then good friends, and after that lovers and when were broken, we became strangers. again.

i had too much walks down in memory lane this night. it hurts me so bad.

kawen, kawen, kawen!

2011-12-01T04:58:00.000-08:00

let's see..

hari ini, 4 of my friends kahwin. 2 pasang pengantin la kiranya.

sampai2 dekat masjid, tengok pengantin perempuan pertama senyum. sangat tenang. mukanya ada mekap yang sangat tipis. orang kata mekapnya dia yang oleskan sendiri. bajunya pula dikatakan baju bonda dia yang diturunkan kepadanya. bouquet bunga carnation pink yang kecil dia pegang kemas.

pengantin perempuan kedua sampai dengan rakannya pula. mekapnya stok olesan mekap artis. raut wajahnya seolah nak senyum, tapi tak boleh. tangan member dia digenggam erat. tak nak lepas. nervous sangat. sampaikan aura dia sampai kat aku. jantung aku yang mula degup kencang.

"no turning back" berseloroh rakan baik pengantin2 perempuan ni. bermacam perasaan yang bermain dalam kotak fikiran aku yang cuba membayangkan aku ditempat mereka. sumpah cuak.

masing2 bergerak ke dalam masjid. hadirin yang ada sangatlah 1 malaysia. india, cina, melayu - semua ada. "harmoni sungguh" kata hati aku. pak imam ala2 akon muslim mulakan khutbah bila semua yang ada siap duduk setel.

selesai ceramah, pak lebai cakap yang dia dah tanya bapak kepada pengantin perempuan pertama dan dia setuju kasi kawenkan anak dia. kemudian ditanya apakah dowry dia dan ada lagi tak dowry lain yang tak ada pada waktu itu. dia terangkan, lepas aku dok cakap script akad ni, dan hangpa cakap "i have accepted" - hangpa berdua dah jadi laki bini.

time akad tu tak payah cerita lah. cuak gila wey. aku cerita balik ni pun jantung aku masih dup dap dup dap.

setel pengantin pertama, pengantin kedua pulak. dua2 lancar. alhamdulillah.

apa yang aku boleh simpulkan kahwin di sini, sangat modest. cincinnya, mekapnya, hantarannya, bajunya, fotografernya, keknya, tetamunya, majlis makan2nya. semua.

it was so modest that it kinds of break my heart a little bit seeing it right in front of my eyes. but i imagined myself what or how would it be if i put myself in their spot. the wedding is purely to unite and it focuses more on the marriage itself, and that on it's own is beautiful. there is so much for me to say, and so much for me to learn. all in all, it was historical. i could never imagine i would be invited to a wedding as such. so lucky to witness such an event.

p/s; leha dapat bouquet pengantin perempuan campak tadi! next year sure leha pulak yang kawen! hoho! amin!

i can't wrap my mind around it.

2011-11-30T05:18:00.001-08:00

perasaan yang sangat bercampur baur bila lihat seorang rakan yang dikenali disini yang bakal melangsungkan akad nikah esok berinai bagai malam ini.

nak tanya!

2011-11-28T21:39:00.000-08:00

lelaki memang suka bau manis pada perempuan eh?

peliknya. sebab rata2 lelaki yang aku kenal macam itu.

ada yang nak mendangkal tak?

perasaan riak dan takkabbur itu sifat2 yang tidak baik! sifat mazmumah ya kawan2!

2011-11-28T04:08:00.001-08:00

tadi semasa sedang menikmati angin malam dalam kereta, hosmet buka cerita.

"budak lelaki terkejut tengok kau boleh kejar masa tu. diaorang ingat kau mesti tertinggal belakang."

sambil dengar, aku menumpukan perhatian pada jalan kota raya ostolia.

diminda aku seolah terpancar imej bergerak permandangan sepanjang great ocean road tak berapa lama dahulu.

kononnya trip pertama serumah bersama2. aku bergilir jadi pemandu dengan seorang lagi rakan perempuan lain. satu kereta mewah sewa dipenuhi 5 orang gadis2 sunti termasuk aku.

jalannya memang sangat berliku. gaung disebelah sana sini. sebab hari sudah semakin gelap dan masa sangat mencemburui kami, budak2 lelaki yang turut ada dalam 2 buah kereta lain memecut walaupun trek yang dilalui tak besar dan lurus macam landasan kapal terbang.

aku masih ingat, aku ikut rapat sebab takut ditinggal. mintak jauh nak kena tinggal tengah2 hutan dah malam2 macam tu. sekereta penuh perempuan sahaja bukan boleh buat apa.

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aku tarik nafas, menekan brek pada lampu kuning yang terpapar pada lampu isyarat dan tersenyum seorang.

sumpah bangga.

wa punya skill sama terer dengan laki bhai. lu ada bran ka nak celen wa? bahaha!

cerita2 diwaktu tenghari bumi ostolia.

2011-11-27T17:02:00.000-08:00

kalau hangpa nak tau, aku ni memang obses dengan kahwin dan wedding. dalam minda aku selalu berkata, kalau seseorang tu dah berkahwin, seolah dia dah menang. dah dapat kemuncak cinta. dah ultimate lah tu.

perkahwinan bagi aku, menandakan seseorang tu berjaya. ahhh, aku tak reti nak terangkan.

bayangkan, pada umur 20 pun, adik beradik dan mama aku dah wish aku dapat jodoh. sebab dari dulu aku obses. aku ada target. 25 nak kahwin, inshaAllah.

jadi, selama ni bermula pencarian jejaka2 dan juga diri sendiri disamping tu.

kononnya, berdasarkan dalil ini;

(Lazimnya) perempuan-perempuan yang jahat adalah untuk lelaki-lelaki yang jahat, dan lelaki-lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan-perempuan yang jahat dan (sebaliknya) perempuan-perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki-lelaki yang baik, dan lelaki-lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan- perempuan yang baik (An-Nur;26)

dari sini, boleh disimpulkan - kalau nak lelaki yang baik, pasti kita sendiri pun haruslah baik juga. kan?

tetapi mengikut dalil ini pula;

Daripada Amirul Mukminin Abu Hafsin 'Umar ibn al-Katthab r.a. beliau berkata:

Aku mendengar Rasulullah SAW bersabda:

Bahawa sesungguhnya setiap amalan itu bergantung kepada niat, dan bahawa sesungguhnya bagi setiap orang apa yang dia niatkan. Barangsiapa yang hijrahnya menuju kepada Allah dan RasulNya, maka hijrahnya kepada Allah dan RasulNya. Barangsiapa yang hijrahnya kerana dunia yang dia mahu mencari habuannya, atau kerana seorang perempuan yang dia mahu kahwininya, maka hijrahnya ke arah perkara

yang ditujuinya itu.

Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim (Himpunan Hadis 40, #1)

membuatkan aku terkesima. aku obses sangat dengan perkahwinan, seringkali aku berbuat sesuatu, aku inginkan keputusan yang baik selepas itu.

aku bingung.

sobs, sedih tau macam ni.

2011-11-25T00:33:00.001-08:00

leha baru beli cermin mata hitam baru. kalau dipakai tu, orang mesti tersalah dan ingatkan leha adalah angelina jolie muslim yang sedang mencari anak angkat baru.

tapi, sejak leha ada cermin mata hitam bergaya ni,

hari2 mendung! hujan!

otak ku merespon pada detik2 cemas.

2011-11-17T01:54:00.000-08:00

kalau beli kek, pasti diberi peluang untuk ditulis atasnya menggunakan icing berwarna warni. sangat cantik, dan rasanya masin2 manis sedikit.

apa jua mesej pun boleh disampaikan dan ditulis. selalunya, yang biasa kita lihat adalah ucapan selamat hari lahir yang dialih bahasa ke bahasa inggeris. sebab orang malaysia sangat cool macam tu. katanya.

aku seorang perempuan gemuk. nafsu makan aku serupa syaiton kadang2.

pernah sekali aku kepingin nak makan kek. sebab aku gemuk, aku tak beli hanya sepotong, aku beli sebiji untuk puaskan nafsu serakah aku.

kakak manis yang berada dibelakang kaunter sebelum memasukkan kek kedalam kotak bertanya, "nak tulis apa2 tak?" sambil menghulurkan pen dan kertas kecil.

dalam minda aku berlangsung sidang perbincangan.

"ahh, kalau tulis sesuatu, dapat icing lebih. aku gemuk, aku suka icing!"

"tapi aku tak beli untuk sesiapa. nak tulis apa?"

"kalau tak tulis, nanti kakak mesti pelik. ah! mesti dia syak aku nak makan sorang!"

"tapi betul, memang aku nak makan sorang. malu kalau dia tahu"

"mmm, kalau tak tulis tak dapat icing!"

aku capai kertas dan pena. ku pandang kelangit untuk inspirasi. akhirnya tangan aku menulis.

"HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY KAMALA"

dear you,

2011-11-09T02:07:00.000-08:00

i hope it's nothing serious.

my prayers are with you.

walaupun aku orang jahat yang tak alim dan mungkin doa aku tak makbul. tapi, aku berdoa juga! mungkin sampai mungkin tidak itu urusan Tuhan.

tattoos and run.

2011-11-08T02:16:00.001-08:00

my religion does not permit tattoos. it's considered as mutilating our bodies, where our bodies are fully owed by our Creator. sets of rules and regulations are given for us to take care of what is borrowed and we should follow it.

what if someone borrows your stuffs that you love and did God knows what to it. bet you wouldn't like it too.

despite all that, i am very interested in the art of tattooing. i believe all tattoos are beautiful because it resembles something so meaningful in your life that you wanted it to be under your own skin forever.

IF i am permitted to have tattoos though, and let our imaginations run wild here;

i'd like to have one on my wrist that says "RUN". it means a lot to me in my life i think. summing up in just one word, "RUN" gives a lot of definitions.

Signs.

2011-11-06T08:20:00.000-08:00

a phase in life.

2011-11-06T01:24:00.000-07:00

I realize that everytime I got out of a relationship, I'd prep up and dress the best that I could and put on make up.

It is actually a cry, asking people to actually notice me. I call this phase as

"fasa janda berhias"

whereas normally I can be so selekeh, not care that my shirt is not ironed, not care that my tudung is out of place, not care that my shoes are hideous and absolutely do not care that my outfit just do not match with each other.

selekeh. nak mati. haha.

You see, I can be pretty when I wanted to be (ie; special occasions) but I chose not to on a normal day basis. I just couldn't be bothered.

but, bwahey. It's janda berhias time.

No, this is not being tabarruj. This is merely me, trying to step up my game sweetheart.

Someone Like You.

2011-11-05T06:31:00.000-07:00

Ah.. my blogspot. A far long forgotten space. How's my life has been? I'd say crap, but I feel bad about all the kids in Africa, in Palestine. I'd say it's good, but then it really hasn't been.

It has been a crazy ride for me. Relationship-wise. Got into 3 relationships in a semester and failed miserably in all of them. Dumped in 2 out of the 3. Haha! God, bless my soul.

Anyhow, I'd like to share a story about me and my current misfortune.

This guy has been almost everything I wanted him to be.

He is cute, has a very peaceful look on his face.

He's strong. I think. He does silat and can break several roof tiles. Not to mention spiritually stable as well.

He is always so cheerful. Never seen him without a smile on his face.

He can't sing. He has one of the most awful voices I've heard in my life.

But he reads the Quran and do the dhikr that puts me to sleep at night.

He can't play the guitar too well.

But he knows Islam like the back of his hands.

He doesn't have facial hair as much.

But his little bit of goatie shows that he follows the sunnah.

He doesn't have the most coolest friends on earth.

But his friends are always there for him, and his relationship with his family is really good too.

Most importantly, my family approves him in one glance. Which has never happened before. My family is very judgmental and had been rejecting my partners everytime I was in a relationship.

As much as I'd like to think he is the most perfect guy I have ever met, he has his flaws. His words hurts like a blade cutting through my heart every single time.

He says I'm fine in most parts but I'm fat.

He says I'm this, while I should really be that.

Stop doing the things that you kept on doing in the past.

Constantly trying to change me.

Most of the time, I'd take his words and turn it into something positive and take it as a challenge. Until one day I snapped. Even then, it was not a fight. It was just a "discussion". A heart to heart moment.

Out of the blue, he started to point more of my flaws, wanting a downgrade from being lovers to friends. He kept giving me shady answers when asked why.

I was mission impossible. Looking at me, as if there is no hope at all from the way he said it. It's because of me and my imperfections. I blame my past for turning me into what I am now. If only I would have met him earlier in my life.

If only I would be someone, fit for him.

At the end, he never contacted me anymore.

Like all good stories, this one has a moral in it too. Choose your life carefully. All your decisions affect your future. Don't be like myself, having to duel with the past that cannot be changed no matter what I do or how hard I tried.

You might have the best slipped right off of your hands.

p/s: to those pious people that might smirk at my post while I was so proud of how religious he is but instead had me as a girlfriend - well, he is not my ex-boyfriend. He was my fiance.

WAS.

To you, regardless of what I say, deep in my heart only God knows how I long for you. You were a blessing from up above. I appreciate how you've stepped into my life and kept your footprints here in my memory. You've taught me so much. Thank you.

If I ever become good enough for you, I'll come and find you okay?

"sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead."

2011-07-27T06:21:00.001-07:00

jauhnya dia.

dear diary,

2011-07-18T09:37:00.000-07:00

You pretend it doesn't bother you, but you just want to explode...!

dear diary,

2011-07-12T23:40:00.001-07:00

no, i don't want to go back :'(

tak puas hati malam2.

2011-07-01T11:39:00.000-07:00

okay, aku tak paham orang yang boleh ada beralbum2 gambar yang syok sendiri (gambar headshot, tangkap dari atas, bajet comel).

aku juga takkan faham orang bermekap tebal sepuluh inci.

bila tangan dan dada kau dah terang2 dalam gambar lagi gelap dari muka, aku sendiri rasa tak sedap di pandang. orang lain, pendapat lain lah kot.

sudah lah sol. pi main jauh2.

apa salah berkawan dengan ex?

2011-07-01T10:46:00.000-07:00

i heard some people have a strict policy to not be friends with their ex-bf, ex-gf, etc.

why?

i personally believe, they know you well enough to not judge you and understand you.

what's wrong with being friends when you clearly moved on and they moved on?

a relationship does not work because there are a clash of stuffs that trigger a discomfort in one another.

so you're not together anymore,

why not just be friends.

really, kenapa tak boleh?

emotional roller-coasters.

2011-07-01T10:35:00.000-07:00

penat nak naik lah. setahun dah.

2011-06-30T08:58:00.001-07:00

after so long.

i just remembered.

you're an a-hole.

sebab nak buat kerja,

2011-06-29T04:03:00.001-07:00

malam ni set lagu2 clubbing sahaja yang berkumandang.

g to the j.

2011-06-29T02:24:00.000-07:00

pros: finally get to eat gulab jamuns that i always wanted from the indian store.

cons: it tasted more like cardamoms instead of milk which i am pretty sad about.

note to self, make gulab jamuns at home.

also, please find besan laddoo in stores.

selama beberapa hari ini, solehah ada jumpa sesuatu.

2011-06-28T08:23:00.000-07:00

solehah tak pernah tahu yang,

"robbanaaaa aatina fiddunia hasanah, wa fil akhirati hasanah, wa qinaa azab annaar"

(al-baqarah; 2:201)

maksud:

"Ya Tuhan kami, berilah kami kebaikkan di dunia dan kebaikkan di akhirat dan peliharalah kami dari seksa neraka"

tu adalah sebaik2 doa orang muslim.

juga, solehah jumpa,

2:286, doa yang sangat menenangkan jiwa solehah.

sobby sob sob.

2011-06-28T05:51:00.000-07:00

nama saya solehah. saya tiada life.

orang lain boleh berkaraoke, berjalan sakan, buatlah apa2 pun.

solehah sedih tiap kali bila ditanya "hari ini buat apa?"

solehah dengan berat hati jawab, "eh, tak buat apa. duk rumah aja"

i wasn't like this before.

tak pernah lekat duduk rumah.

kalau pukul 11malam tu orang lain dah nak masuk tidur. solehah baru nak keluar.

i HAD a life.

sekarang ni honestly, tengok orang karaoke pun tak lalu.

cuma sedih lah nak bagitahu orang solehah tak buat apa2 setiap hari.

i love staying at home. it's just facing people telling them i have nothing to do is so sad!

solehah kopi pes status orang yang baru berkahwin.

2011-06-27T22:45:00.000-07:00

Al habib Abdullah Al haddad berkata: suami yg sempurna adalah suami yg bersikap sudi memaafkan jika isterinya tidak menghias diri dan tidak melayaninya dgn sempurna tapi bersikap tegas jika isterinya tidak melakukan solat dan puasa. Suami yg kurang adalah yg bersikap keras jika isteri tidak berhias dan melayaninya dgn sempurna tetapi bersikap acuh tak acuh jika isteri meninggalkan solat dan puasa.

just a side note,

solehah nampak comel juga memakai gincu merah. hahaha.

kthxbai.

staus orang baru kawen.

2011-06-27T20:55:00.000-07:00

Sedangkan lidah lg tergigit apa pula suami isteri... Buang yg keruh ambil yg jernih... Baru teguh peribadi..

kalau aku dah kawen nanti.

2011-06-27T04:15:00.001-07:00

Rasullullah s.a.w bersabda: takutlah kepada Allah di dalam memimpin isteri2mu kerana sesungguhnya mereka adalah amanat yg berada di sampingmu. Barang siapa tidak memerintahkan solat kepada isterinya dan tidak mengajarkan agama kepadanya, maka dia telah berkhianat kepada Allah dan Rasullullah

kenapa ada masalah ini?

2011-06-25T16:32:00.000-07:00

malam semalam, ada aku borakkan dengan "Si Nono" tentang melayu yang secara automatisnya dilahirkan islam di malaysia boleh mengkondem islam itu sendiri dalam medium blog. rasionalnya kerana sains.

kenapa timbul / wujudnya masalah ini?

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masih ingat sewaktu kau berperingkat sekolah menengah, jawapan dalam skema penulisan karangan kalau ditanya tentang masalah sosial adalah "kurang pendidikan agama". ingat lagi kah?

kau mungkin berkata, "ah, kalau kurang pendidikan agama, mana pergi rasionalnya kalau budak2 sekolah agama atau sebangsa dengannya boleh berkeliaran tanpa tutup aurat diluar kawasan sekolah / universiti - atau bocor video rahsia 3gp dengan tudung labuh lagi. mereka sekolah agama! jadi teori kau tak boleh dipakai!"

respon aku?

mereka juga kurang agama. teras agama yang dididik di malaysia hanyalah setakat di spoon feed sahaja. mereka tak menerangkan secara lebih2, tidak ada pula contoh aplikasi dalam dunia sekarang (tak up-to-date dengan perkembangan semasa), dan bab yang aku paling benci, kita dipaksa menerima dan kunyah itu adalah islam tanpa diberi alasan yang munasabah kepada soalan2 kita.

akhir sekali, pengetahuan agama yang ramai tahu itu sekadar dasar luaran, dan ramai mempunyai assume knowledge sahaja.

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untuk prove point di atas ini, mari kita adakan sesi soal jawab.

syaratnya mudah. jangan rujuk google. gunakan akal fikiran dan pengetahuan kau yang selama ni diguna pakai.

soalan: kenapa orang muslim diharamkan makan babi?

okay, jawab lah cepat!

*sambung baca blog.

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bagi aku, sifat anak2 kecil (and not limited to) yang baru diterapkan dengan asas2 agama, jangan dipaksa suruh menerima islam tanpa diberikan alasan, dan dalil yang munasabah kepada soalan2 yang bermain di fikiran mereka.

sesungguhnya kalau diberikan jawapan yang sepatutnya, islam itu dapat diterapkan dengan lebih menyeluruh.

jangan pula bila dia bertanya (atau pertikaikan), kau senang perkatakan dia tolol, bodoh, tak tahu agama. bukankah lebih baik kalau kau share dengan mereka ilmu yang kau ada?

sekian.

wAllahu'alam.

lagi lagi cerita kahwin.

2011-06-24T06:10:00.000-07:00

i know for some people, they want a very extravagant wedding. people say, weddings are a once in a lifetime event, and it means a lot to them. they want the term "raja sehari" to be portrayed in every way during their wedding day.

for me, how i see weddings are slightly different from others.

i see it more as a get together. a small celebration celebrated by close family and friends. that's it.

i just want a modest dress, that doesn't cost too much, but will make me feel special and beautiful and comfortable.

i probably need a pelamin for the sake of taking photos during my big day.

some modest deco.

some modest food, like steam white rice with some traditional dishes. oh? probably asam pedas ikan pari! that's my favorite!

i'll call up friends from my photography club from uniteng to take photos of my wedding day.

find some students who do makeups, and have them put on very very light neutral makeups on me.

some invitations, and that's it.

it honestly does not have to be fancy at all.

if my husband really want to treat me right, buy me a plane ticket to somewhere, and we can have a romantic getaway together. just the two of us. rather than spending all that money for just a day. with all those people.

weddings are fine, but i'm more concern about the marriage. it shouldn't last for just a day.

i can't wait.

okay, mesti cari lelaki dahulu untuk dikahwini. mana anda?

hello semua.

2011-06-19T23:52:00.000-07:00

solehah teringin nak jadi penyanyi.

sangat sangat.

jujur ni dari hati.

ok lah, bye! mwahs mwahs!

hate hate hate.

2011-06-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

i can be so unpleasant when you get to know me at first.

but you cant resist me afterwards.

when you get to really know me.

ke? ye ke?

haihs.

solehah. stop la stop.

duhai anak2 bangsa.

2011-06-15T20:09:00.000-07:00

aku hairan, yang aku disini rancak dan sangat eksaited terkinja tak tidur malam menunggu updates website2 kerajaan dihack oleh kononnya ANONYMOUS sejak tanggal 15 jun 2011

tapi

di malaysia, ramai sangat yang ambil tak endah dengan apa yang berlaku.

apakah kamu2 yang tak ambil tahu ni tak kisah pasal perjuangan hak kamu sebagai seorang manusia, atau kamu sebok dan lalai dengan maharaja lawak sahaja?

HOW CAN YOU NOT BE THRILLED THAT HISTORY IS BEING MADE RIGHT NOW?

HOW CAN YOU BE SO IGNORANT WHEN THERE IS A CYBER WAR IN OUR COUNTRY?

HOW CAN YOU NOT BE EXCITED THAT THEY AER FIGHTING FOR YOUR RIGHTS?

HOW?
WHY?

KENAPA?

musykil, hairan, blur, buntu, banyak betul tanda tanya.

hi.

2011-06-14T09:33:00.001-07:00

today i realize,

being rejected by people online still hurts.

tsk.

thank you.

2011-06-13T19:54:00.000-07:00

i found a tiny ball of light in the middle of the darkness.

dense feeling is dense.

2011-06-12T07:48:00.000-07:00

"have you been into a room full of people and you feel so alone and lonely?"

"yes, all the time - every single day..."

oh lord,

2011-06-10T01:03:00.001-07:00

i feel so alone.

orang mesti nak kata aku macam ni sebab aku tak ada cinta. bukan bro. kalau aku bercinta pun tak macam ni. oh, aku juga benci lelaki romantis, fyi.

2011-06-09T19:16:00.000-07:00

"i love you forever"

"i wish we can be together for the rest of our lives"

"you are my life, my everything"

bull@#$%. couple je pun. lepas a few months / a few year, clash.

i never knew forever means a few years nor do i remember the rest of our lives means a few months.

choice of words bebeh. choice of words.

lepas tu lagi2 kes budak2 yang dah main. kena tebuk.

berlambak dah. memang virginity dah tak ada nilai dah di malaysia. tak risau kah bila kau beranak pinak nanti, anak2 kau hilang dara / teruna masa sekolah lagi?

memang kita duduk di new york pun kan?

somehow i have this twisted idea to raise my kids here to have some moral values, to not have the urge to have sex because everyone was doing it?

kau tahu, ramai je yang masih virgin di sini sebab they haven't found the right one, not ready yet, or haven't had a really long relationship?

benci

2011-06-08T19:59:00.000-07:00

aku benci tengok orang wish happy birthday dengan singkatan hb.

apakah kau punya keyboard tak cukup sifat nak taip lebih sikit? gila tak ikhlas nak ucap selamat hari jadi.

kalau setakat nak cukup syarat, baik tak payah.

kau buat tangan lenguh je nak reply antara beriban lagi yang lain yang wish.

tak ada signifikan langsung. no class.

speaking of the western culture.

2011-06-08T08:50:00.000-07:00

ramai malaysians dah terlampau terikut barat sampai ter-efek dari segi tutur kata, pakaian, dan aksi.

dulu, media massa di malaysia masih takut2 dan sangat menjaga tentang hal2 yang berkaitan dengan agama ni.

sekarang seolah media massa nak cuba push their luck in making people accept the subliminal insensitivity towards islam. betul. cuba fikir balik apa aku cakap ni.

please ponder to what i have to say.

calon calon suami, mana anda?

2011-06-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

so far i've seen quite a number of amazing wedding proposals.

too bad, for us malays it just doesn't seem impossible. it's all good in america but not in malaysia.

these videos made us women have high expectations on a wedding proposal and you know how it is. when things didn't go the way you expected, you get slightly sad.

i want a super romantic proposal like that! sobs.

ok, step 1 - must find a guy.

cancelling out the feeling.

2011-06-07T02:21:00.000-07:00

i feel so alone right now.

why can't i be like every one else? emo menonggeng?

i can't help it. i feel stupid. everytime i feel awfully depressed i will always be grateful for everything else that i have. so it kind of cancels out my depressions.

does it make sense?

2011-06-06T09:52:00.000-07:00

i lost all respect towards you.

tadi terjumpa video ni. macam tersingkap kisah lama pula.

2011-06-06T09:22:00.000-07:00

tahu kah solehah mula rasa minat nak main gitar sebabkan ada kakak ajar lagu zombie - cranberries guna simplified chords.

masa tu dah rasa hebat sangat. macam dah boleh bayangkan jadi artis terkenal lah bila main gitar tu.

antara pemangkin yang buat solehah rasa nak pikap skill lebih lepas satu session dengan kakak gojes adalah video ni.

nampak macam chords senang solehah berseloroh dalam hati.

"patut beli gitar ni. boleh praktis selalu."

coles penyelamat jiwa raga aku doh.

2011-06-06T00:48:00.000-07:00

tadi berkejaran pergi bersiap diri macam makcik gemuk, hidupkan adel dan pecut ke coles. (coles ni macam tesco tapi oz punya. fakta: tesco - uk punya)

aku semata ke coles mencari jintan putih dan tomato!

malam ni nak masak daging dendeng! yeyey!

tu je.

kthnxbai.

taylor swift kalah. hands down.

2011-06-05T11:07:00.000-07:00

solehah keras2 hati pun,

dengar lagu ni bawa ke tidur.

ultimate lagu cinta.

si cinonet.

2011-06-05T07:10:00.000-07:00

solehah ada roomate baru. housemate ke-5 dalam rumah rambu rambu raya.

malam2 baru dia keluar. lapar mungkin. bilik solehah banyak makanan. mesti dia suka.

dia kecik sahaja. comel. gelap2 manis. eh bukan. comel.

nama dia jeri (baca: jerry)

i wish he could come out often so i can share my secrets with him.

please come out and play. i'll give you all the cheese that you could ever imagine. sobs.

wangi lah ehem saya!

2011-06-05T04:38:00.000-07:00

belakang rumah solehah banyak buah limau dan buah lemon.

limau memang makanan harian lah musim2 sejuk ni. sebab musim sejuk sahaja dia berbuah.

lemon pulak, selalu buat masak, makan tomyam dengan lemon - memang terangkat.

lemon guna buat air, sedap.

lemon solehah banyak sangat.

bagi hiris sikit, kasi wangi air cebok tahi dalam jamban.

2011-06-02T18:41:00.000-07:00

so long sweets.

go solehah go!

2011-06-02T07:20:00.000-07:00

I've found myself a darn good novel.

it's intriguing and interesting.

himpunan kisah2 yang aku tak pernah tahu selama ni pun.

definitely original.

mari pupuk semangat membaca!

To whom it may concern;

2011-06-01T05:00:00.000-07:00

I do not appreciate acts of rage.

When I'm not doing what I am supposed to do according to what you want, please ask me nicely. Talk to me. I'm not that stupid. I sometimes am not aware of what I am doing. Also I might have my own reasons for doing the things that I do.

I am a person that when I get angry, I do not curse. I am a girl that believes in reasoning.

I curse sometimes but that is when I am not angry. Or when I am with long time mates.

I really really really do not appreciate acts of rage especially when you curse in front of my face.

It doesn't get the point across. It makes other people hurt their feelings. It shows how you would handle bigger problems. It shows how you would be in 10 more years from now. It is not pleasant.

Thanks.

when the whole world makes you suicidal, you're there to hold me tight and say everything will be alright. thanks awak. thanks sangat sangat.

2011-05-31T06:54:00.000-07:00

aku hilang diri lah nak dekat2 exam ni. selalunya solehah memang keep myself together pun. dah tengah2 sem, makin blur, makin putus asa. resam study kot.

cepat lah habis. nak nikah ni.

solehah macam jadi diri solehah yang lama. tapi member rumah kata solehah tak macam dulu. well, sebab dulu dia tak pernah jumpa solehah.

solehah kata solehah yang lama dah tak ada. not available. yillek.

dia kata ada. ada dalam diri solehah.

dia bagi link lagu. solehah syak bagi usrah2 lebat atau nasyid2 hangat atau zikir2 munajat. budak kuat agama sikit dia tu. tapi budak yang cool. tak kecoh pun walhal atas tikar sembahyang hari2 baca quran sambil tangkap leleh air mata.

baru nak jerit TERBAKARRR TERBAKARRRRR! tengok2 link tu, sebenarnya..

lagu hero - mariah carey.

"that a hero lies in you" mendalam gila. for almost 22 years i've been living. i've never seen the song in that point of view.

solehah makin lama makin pekak. kot? ke sebab bunyi air yang kuat sangat. tu lah. nak bercakap sambil basuh pinggan. siapa suruh!!

2011-05-30T22:16:00.001-07:00

situasi di dapur

budak rumah sibuk basuh pinggan, nak siap2 memasaklah tu dah balik sekolah petang2 macam ni.

solehah yang dah siap masakan, pergi panaskan nasi goreng yang tak berapa nak goreng sangat dalam kuali. habis bontot kuali di garu2 dengan sudip kayu yang dah nazak. kononnya tak mahu ada nasi terlekat. nanti rugi.

memang dah betul2 hujung bulan ni. duit tak masuk lagi.

"sejuklah!" solehah bising bila masuk dapur dengan tshirt nipis, berkain batik.

"masuklah dalam bas! masuklah dalam bas!" member rumah kata.

rupanya "pakailah tebal2! pakailah tebal2!"

memandangkan aku dah off wall dekat fesbuk, dan malas nak annoy orang kat home mereka lagi, serta tak layan sangat twitter mitter ni, aku meroyan la..

2011-05-30T17:11:00.000-07:00

..kat blog pulak! bahahaha!

aku dah lama dah borak pasal ni dekat housemate aku.

malaysia dengan oz (aussie) tak sama. walaupun bangsa2 melayu dia datang dari malaysia jugak, dan datang dalam kadar dibangunkan dimalaysia sama lama dengan kita kita.

kes di malaysia:

kalau pakai cantik sikit, orang perasan. mesti tegur2 manja.

"acey, lawa hari ni" *insert wink wink di sini*

kes di oz:

*insert bunyi cengkerik. lama lama*

cara bergaul budak2 melayu sini lain sikit. tak segila kat malaysia. buat aku rasa malaysia harmoni sangat. ramai budak2 nakal2 manja yang kelakar kot?

sini, mungkin semua budak pandai2. tak layan sangat kot benda2 bodoh ni?

ke aku je sombong?

ke aku terlepak dengan budak2 yang salah?

aku pernah ke melepak?

DUNIAAAAAAAAAAAAA APA KAU DAH BUAT KAT AKUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

MANA PERGI SOLEHAH DULUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU????

MANA PERGI SOL????!!!!!!!!!!!

selamat pagi!

2011-05-30T16:36:00.001-07:00

today chatted with a mate and caught another glimpse of the past.

how a lot have changed over a year and a half.

amazing how time works.

sambil angin pagi yang sejuk sejuk sedap menghembus,

solehah fikir..

best jugak kalau buat trend pakai kain batik pergi sekolah.

agak2 ada orang nak follow tak? ke solehah je nampak macam orang gila?

bahahahaha.

cool kot?

a glimpse of the past

2011-05-30T12:28:00.000-07:00

what did you see when you looked into her eyes?

when you stared her face for a while?

why did you do the things that you did with her?

how maybe she swept your feet off earth?

where were you, when she called out to your name?

who is she and what's her game?

dear solehah;

2011-05-29T21:50:00.000-07:00

you can't just run into the past just because it's familiar.

so, so true.

s o l e h a h

2011-05-29T12:48:00.000-07:00

you know how some girls are so tough and independent and just know what she's doing?

someone who would be caught dead shedding a tear, and act cool all the time?

but if you dig down inside, there lies a little girl needed to be nurtured and taken care of.

who cries at the beauty of small things no one seems to care about.

who believes in dreams and fairytale as much as her outer layer insisted to believe that they are lies.

who longs for sincere loving warm hugs and would love to grow old with a laugh line on her face.

who is scared of the dark and hated to be alone at all times.

who feels like she's in love again every time she watches a romantic movie.

who is very much a softy.

katy perry would say that person is: "like a hard candy, with a surprise center"

well,

i'm one of those girls.

definitely, maybe.

2011-05-29T11:20:00.001-07:00

Yesterday a dear friend of mine gave me a movie title for me to watch.

"Definitely, maybe"

Thank God the movie was on youtube. I've always hated downloading stuff. Movies, songs, all that sort.

It was a chick flick. With a suspected happy ending, but nonetheless makes you wish you were the latter.

On a side note;

I was talking to N the other day, and we were talking about engagements, weddings and acceptance..

DID YOU KNOW;

the whole idea of getting proposed by a guy, and when you said yes to marrying him that you are engaged - is exactly how engagements are in Islam?

and you think we can't be all romantic like, just like in the movies because we're Muslims. No honey, it's because we're Malays. hahaha.

back to the main topic,

chick flicks. love 'em love 'em LOVE 'EM!

let me know some of your favorites and let's just cross our fingers that it's on youtube for me to watch! YAY!

konklusi

2011-05-27T07:38:00.000-07:00

setiap kali buat pencuci mulut jenis apa pun,

MESTI JADI BATU.

hari ni donut jadi biskut. macam runtuh dunia, jatuh langit.

merajuks dah. takmo buat dah!

ceghita malam malam

2011-05-25T09:36:00.000-07:00

okay ada kawan solehah bagi satu blog ni.

cara nak kurus katanya. berkesan. dia sendiri cuba dah 10kg turun dalam masa sebulan (tahniah ye kawan solehah? :D)

bila baca blog tu, solehah perasan betapa seksanya makan cara macam tu. bersyarat2. terikat sangat.

tapi berkesan lah.

no pain no gain. you giveaway something and get something better in return.

solehah tak boleh kot? solehah nak terus cara solehah sendiri je lah.

i've lose weight. a significant amount. not too bad. sustainable and also do-able for me. as in not too many restrictions. can be adapted kepada nafsu serakah orang2 melayu kat malaysia - aku rasa.

downside dia lambat ah. paling2 pun 2kg je sebulan. slomoooo je.

tak apa lah. test macam ni dulu. solehah penat, sebab percaya lah. solehah dah cuba macam2 jenis diet, dah cuba macam2 tempat pengurusan badan yang berharga riban2, dah naik 10kg dalam sebulan, dah turun 10kg dalam sebulan, dah masuk hospital sebab diet tak betul, dah kontrol makan dan stress sorang2 lepastu balas dendam dengan melantak semua yang ada depan mata....bla bla bla. malas la tulis macam perempuan. bebel2 segala haram jadah.

so tak apa lah. solehah doakan orang2 yang diet cara mereka berjaya. sebab solehah tahu, susah..

lagipun solehah tahu, solehah tak financially mampu nak buat diet tu. jadi macam tak boleh. haihs.

kenapa solehah tak pernah tulis lagu?

2011-05-23T19:01:00.001-07:00

sebab solehah ada masalah dalam menyatakan / menyampaikan sesuatu dengan baik apa yang ada dalam kepala solehah.

sebab tu banyak berlaku salah faham. ramai kawan2 pun putus kawan.

inikan lagi lah nak buat lagu? memang tak lah.

main point di sini.

solehah kagum dengan lady gaga. nilai seni dia sangat mendalam. double triple quadruple meaning dia boleh letak dalam lirik2 dia, tak payah cerita lah video2 klip dia yang buat kau kata "gila apa perempuan ni?" tapi kalau fikir betul2 macam2 yang kau boleh simpulkan.

wow, gaga.

hari ini hari guru, tapi entry ini untuk mama.

2011-05-16T07:46:00.000-07:00

mama, nak nikah.

sekarang?

please?

OMAIGADDDDD

2011-05-15T17:39:00.000-07:00

Jordin Sparks sebaya I la uolls!

dia dah kurus!

jelezzz mak!

we're invincible

2011-05-06T04:51:00.001-07:00

i'll be there for you, baby.

you know i will.

hello.

2011-05-05T21:53:00.000-07:00

put the previous entry aside. i was having one of my crazy crash down and burn moments.

now i'm all better thanks to daddy mommy, yay!

okay. so i need this thing. i really do.

it has many strings. 6 to be exact.
a very solid body out of wood. heavy wood.
you can tickle it and slap it. hoyeah hard.

nak gitar baru satu please? solehah punya yang lama bunyi tahi. tolong belikan yang baru. yang sedap sikit bunyi? pleaaaase?

kthxbai.

ma, ayah...

2011-05-02T21:17:00.000-07:00

i feel so out of place.

i really want out, but i know it's not going to do any good for me.

mom, dad - i'm sorry.

i can't breathe.

i can't do this.

14/4/2011 - 27/4/2011

2011-04-27T03:21:00.000-07:00

everything seems surreal.

when it was over, i was back to my normal self doing things i normally do.

all these while as if i was trapped in a time zone, as if i just woke up from a dream.

i can't really explain it.

teri chunariyaaaaaa dil le gayiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

2011-04-11T17:10:00.000-07:00

haish, tengok cerita hindustan banyak2 macam ni hati aku memberontak kata;

"I NEED SOME LOVIN' YO!"

hahaha, sudah sudah. solehah selalu macam ni waktu2 nak exam.

semua benda nak. itu nak, ini nak.

lepas exam, hati tenang, tak ada pun nak macam macam.

haish, lempang kang.

wah?

2011-04-05T04:41:00.000-07:00

for real orang beli baju dress supre bodoh, tak ada design, material macam tu untuk RM50?

tahu ke kat sini orang beli dalam harga $2.50?

kalau dalam ringgit malaysia baru RM7.50?

ORANG JUAL RM50????

okeh, solehah dah ada plan bisnes! kaching!

tak ada sensitiviti langsung

2011-04-04T20:58:00.000-07:00

pernah sekali solehah quote ayat dari bible tempohari yang solehah terjumpa di internet dan solehah rasakan menarik, jadi solehah share dengan orang ramai di mukabuku.

bukanlah solehah ini dah kuat agama jadi pergi rujuk buku agama lain, dan jadikan rujukan hidup.

ianya semata sebab solehah terjumpa.

sampai lah hari ni, kawan solehah menegur solehah dengan ayat "macam mana study bible kau?"

solehah kata "tak, aku tak belajar bible..", dan mula menerangkan ayat2 di atas.

dan kami pun berborak dan bergurau. dia kata dirinya comel, solehah kata diri solehah kacak, dan dia kata solehah pengkid, dan solehah bergurau2 konon mengiyakan.

sampailah dia kata "ni jadi pengkid belajar dari bible ya?" dengan nada bergurau.

aku kata "tak baik lah cakap bible macam tu, tsk tsk"

dia sambung "touching meh? lex la, budak2 aussie tak boleh joke kew?"

kalau orang kata quran ajar kau jadi gay, atau tengok porno, atau lain2 ayat tak elok, kau tak hangin kah?

kamu nak agama kamu direspek, kamu tak respek pun agama orang lain.

haveeeeeeee you had that moment...

2011-04-04T03:02:00.000-07:00

...where you listen to some old songs (like a year or two back, LOL) and as if you were at a particular place, doing a particular thing, while that song was playing at that particular time?

for example;

if i listen to down - jay sean ft. lil wayne, it was as if i was at home back in malaysia and the house wasn't renovated yet and i was playing "sorority life" on facebook, and i know how my head position was - tilted up a bit because the monitor was slightly high for me and the chair was really starting to hurt my bum.

or

if i listen to baby - justin bieber, as if i was in my rent house here and i was on my bed that has my grey bed sheet on, been flicking through the book i borrowed from the library multiple times, and i was in a hurry because i'm suppose to hand in my work in half an hour and i'm not even half done.

weird right?

i kind of do have the same effect when i smell stuffs too.

now tell me, isn't it weird?

i love it though ;)

i'm rude just because you started it first!

2011-03-30T05:22:00.000-07:00

hai,

solehah tak puas hati dengan kaum2 hawa yang ada. yang sangat annoying.

size m yang rasa diri mereka gemuk nak mati sampai tak hingin nak tengok diri sendiri dekat cermin.

wahai kaum2 hawa yang menjengkelkan.

solehah obes sejak kecil. sampai sekarang. solehah senantiasa bersaiz besar. nak bersaiz xl pun macam boleh tak boleh je ni.

i'd die to be a size m, just like you. (figuratively speaking. no i wont be too stupid to die just to go down a size. i'm happy to be healthy instead)

dan kau meluahkan isi hati kau yang kau gemuk dan kau benci diri kau gemuk.

pada aku.

i think it's fine that you have your own insecurities, but please keep it to yourself or tell it to someone who is at least a size s just so it makes sense.

why the **** that you come on and ramble to me?

when you ramble to me that doesn't make me any smaller nor does it make you slimmer.

so stop with your ramblings.

imagine if you come to a person that is in a wheelchair and you said, "ugh, i hate my legs!"

or if you come up to a person who has lost their hair to cancer and said, "my hair is so ugly!"

it's just freaking rude.

keep that thought in your head the next time you wanted to ramble to a person that does not give a ****

yes, you are being rude.

pray - justin bieber

2011-03-20T20:07:00.000-07:00

hari ni solehah tak ada semangat nak teruskan hidup.

setiap langkah rasa berat.

setiap nafas rasa macam ditoreh pisau.

tapi solehah bodoh.
solehah ada semua benda.
sihat, cukup tubuh badan, duit sentiasa ada, duduk dinegara aman, keluarga masih ada dan saling sayang menyayangi, ada kawan2 merata2, pakaian cukup, ada tempat tinggal, ada tempat tidur yang selesa, ada otak, ada....

ada...

ada......

ada Tuhan yang masih menjaga solehah.

solehah angkat kepala.

teruskan berjuang.

we're getting there.

2011-03-20T16:10:00.000-07:00

i have so many things to regret.

sobs.

2011-03-20T04:57:00.001-07:00

how did people get so pretty?

no matter what i wear, or what i do -

i can never pull off that "santek" look.

kenapa? :'(

a little goes a long way.

2011-03-19T05:20:00.000-07:00

‎"Singgit je, dik."

"Saya makan mi goreng dan air sirap limau. Mcm murah sgt je singgit utk mi dan sirap, bang."

"Takpe. Abg bg free mi goreng. Adik bayar utk air sirap je, limau pun free."

"Aik? Nape pulak?"

"Sebab tadi adik senyum masa panggil abg utk order. Lepas tu, adik ckp terima kasih kat kami masa kami ambik pesanan makanan adik dan adik cakap terima kasih masa kami hantar makanan."

Then kwn cashier di sebelah menyambung, "Adik sorang je buat macam tu kpd kami sepanjang kami berniaga satu hari ni sejak pukul3pagi. Terima kasih, dik"

true story,‎(Kisah kedai mamak depan KLCC; 5pm 19Mac11)

bila dah bekerja menghadap orang sepanjang hari, sangat letih. kadang2 orang tak hiraukan kita - macam kita tak wujud pun.

percayalah. solehah bekerja dulu pun, best bila orang pandang muka kita dan senyum walaupun tak mahu beli apa yang kita jual.

seolah2 hilang semua rasa penat. (berdiri 12jam tau! mulut tak berhenti bercakap pulak tu!)

buat solehah teringat budak kecil yang bagi solehah gula2 masa solehah bekerja. solehah tampal sampul gula2 tu dekat notis board solehah atas meja. sampai sekarang ada. terharu sangat :')

on a side note; malam ni ada super moon. cantik subhanAllah. 19 tahun sekali je.

sangat layan tengok bulan sambil dengar lagu memories - CATS

"memory, all alone in the moonlight..."

i'm that more closer to you. insert smiley gay face here

2011-03-16T23:24:00.000-07:00

hari ni antara hari paling gembira dalam sejarah solehah hidup.

sampai tadi balik pun lompat2 anak. riang sungguh. senyum macam orang baru dapat pakwa.

apa yang best sangat?

hari ni buat eksperimen tarik, tolak dan pusing2 besi (tension, compression and torsion steel test)

dah lah faham apa yang berlaku, rasa eksaited sangat dapat buat eksperimen. ya Allah. hati ni gembira sangat rasa macam perasaan orang nak naik roller coaster. tak pun rasa macam orang bersetubuh.

ORGASMIC.

"apa ada hal?" kau kata?

panjang cerita. lain2 kalilah cerita.

saya nak jadi civil and structural engineer. that gives and saves lives.

InsyAllah

p/s: paling best bila dapat bawak balik besi2 tu, dan instructor sorang tu kata "baguihnya hangpa ni bersemangat!" dan bagi aku info lebih sikit sebab aku pandai tanya soalan yang orang lain tak tanya.

love love love love love love love love love love love love infinity2 kali sampai kiamat!

tak boleh balik sobs sobs

2011-03-16T04:59:00.000-07:00

solehah tengok orang pakai santek santek. dah macam model dah. dengan lilit2 tudung gaya hana tajima. legging/jegging nampak kaki kurus langsing, heels tinggi2 klcc.

santek! santek sangat.

buat solehah risau. hati solehah tak kuat lagi ni nak balik.

solehah cepat terpengaruh. solehah tahu. solehah tak nak lah jadi macam orang santek tu yang pakai santek2.

di tanah air, serabut. bila orang lain ada sesuatu benda. kita nak ada jugak.

orang ada beg coach, kita pun nak jugak.
orang lain free hair, kita pun buat jugak.
orang lain tudung lilit, kita pun nak jugak.
orang lain pergi clubbing, kita pun ikut jugak.

duduk kat sini tenang.

semua sifat material tu dah terasing.

macam mana nak balik ni? T__________T

negaraku

2011-03-14T06:24:00.000-07:00

kenapa negara saya TIDAK sensitif tentang bencana alam yang menimpa?

sedih tengok negara sendiri.

balang hati

2011-03-05T05:56:00.000-08:00

belakang tu sangat cool. seni. solehah yang buat.
solehah rasa macam dah patut masuk art school dah.

abaikanlah muka buruk2 tu. solehah cannot help it.

kthnxbai.

♥ aida sebab hasut kata lagu ni best. best best!

p/s: solehah dah tahu lubang hidung besar, penat nyanyi, dan mekap tak hengat. tak perlu remind lagi. bahahahaha.

who do you think you are?

running round leaving scars,

collecting your jar of hearts,

tearing love apart,

you're gonna catch a cold,

from the ice inside your soul,

don't come back for me,

don't come back at all.

christina perri; jar of hearts.

emas

2011-03-02T01:47:00.000-08:00

ada dengar bisnes jual beli emas?

kamu2 ada review tentangnya?

solehah...

2011-02-26T01:49:00.001-08:00

...tak suka tengok orang pakai bedak muka. lagi2 yang tebal2 alam.

kenapa kamu2 pakai bedak muka? nampak cantikkah?

klimaks.

2011-02-24T04:06:00.000-08:00

i get mesmerized by listening to music.

muzik buat telinga saya orgasma.

nota marah.

2011-02-23T04:45:00.000-08:00

orang asia tak pernah kurus.

dah kerempeng macam papan, kalau lalu belakang tiang lampu pun boleh lesap, masih kata gemuk.

yang badan normal pula tak habis2 nak kata gemuk yang macam obes melampau.

kenapa perempuan tak habis2 dengan insecurities mereka?

dah cantik pun asyik nampak diri gemuk.

aku doa bagi kau gemuk betul2 kang baru tahu. pfft.

gila clubbing.

2011-02-22T04:04:00.000-08:00

have you stumbled upon any COOL videos on youtube or anywhere else that is related to Islam?

the ones that are very creative, and not lame and is so painful and such a drag to hear?

or if you are living overseas,

what kind of activities does the Islamic organization in your community conduct?

please share your thoughts here, it might be the key to a BIG CHANGE.

semoga berjaya!

2011-02-17T05:30:00.000-08:00

solehah stalk kawan kepada kawan punya profile dimukabuku (nampak tak solehah tak ada kerja?) lelaki yang ikut gaya2 tokio hotel. yang rambut emo, pakai but tinggi2 alam, pakai eyeliner, pakai rantai 2 3 utas, pakai pewarna kuku hitam sambil dengan bangga tangkap gambar bergaya pelik2 dalam kompleks pasaraya.

solehah senyum kecil.

terima kasih ayah sebab mengekspresi kemarahan siap baling kipas berdiri kakak sampai patah dua. terima kasih mama sebab suruh kakak buang pewarna kuku hitam, rantai, gelang2, aksesori2 bodoh dalam tong sampah dapur dan siap kerat 18 setiap satu supaya kakak tak boleh ambik balik.

hahahaha. semoga kau pun dapat lepas phase yang sama juga. =)

i have never met someone like you.

2011-02-14T17:30:00.000-08:00

have you met a compulsive liar before?

the one that lies his way out of ANYTHING and EVERYTHING just to save his own bum.

it gets tiring after a while. how can a person live with not a single honest bone in his body?

if you're great at making stories, why not do something out of it. write a novel and actually make yourself seem useful.

using your talent for evil. tsk tsk.

i could not care less if you made it through with your lies, thing is, your a bad liar. does not fit with your alibi. i can only imagine if you murdered someone - oh man, you are a dead duck.

you keep on tangling in your web of lies.

stop hurting people. be good. take care.

happy anniversary.

2011-02-13T05:24:00.000-08:00

3, 2, 1.

the time i wrote this, the clock has already struct 12. it's valentine's day.

a day that carries so much meaning to me. only God knows.

it's not because i have a special someone to share it with, but because it is a mark that shows

it has already been a year. full.

how fast time flew - seconds after seconds, days after days, seasons after seasons passed by. i've made it through a year of emotional roller coaster in the land down under.

i can still remember what happened on the same day exactly one year ago. as if it was yesterday.

how much i've gain, how much i lost.

love,

from adelaide,

australia.

oooh! ooh! tak sabar nak sambut valentine's!

2011-02-12T04:21:00.000-08:00

hik hik hik!

*loncatloncatgelakgedikgedik*

disease.woooooooooooo!

2011-02-11T21:11:00.000-08:00

ok, menakutkan gila kot tengok fesyen hijab sekarang.

macam satu disease pula.

apparently solehah perlu cari hobi baru rather than tengok gambar2 pertandingan kedai2 hijab dimukabuku.

"dulu...saya pakai tudung bawal empat segi. warna pun hitam, putih atau kelabu sahaja"
"sekarang...saya pakai tudung lilit2, siap ada headband, riben, dan anak tudung bertingkat2. saya tak kisah apa orang kata asalkan saya happy dan boleh bergaya! hikhik!"

serabut. nak kata lebih2 takut2, bila solehah balik malaysia nanti solehah terjebak juga. solehah kan mana cukup iman.

mamat ni kelakar. orang born american, tapi mak abah orang apa tah.

ha, dah. pi tengok!

price tag.

2011-02-10T19:48:00.000-08:00

setahun baru tak balik malaysia, fesyen tudung bawal dah lupus. macam dinosour.

aku kurang gemar ikut fesyen sangat. selalunya bila orang lain dah habis zaman sesuatu fesyen tu, aku baru terhegeh2 nak ikut. dan aku tak kisah. jadi orang lain tak patut kisahkan aku juga.

agak2 solehah balik malaysia nanti pelik tak kalau sampai lcct dengan tudung bawal?

So who do we have to blame for Valentine's Day?

2011-02-08T23:11:00.000-08:00

At around 270AD Rome was facing battles and civil upraising.

The men were not keen to join the army, and Emperor Claudius II believed the men didn't want to leave their loved ones and so cancelled all marriages and engagements.

Two priests, Valentine and Marius disobeyed and secretly performed marriage ceremonies.

Valentine was caught on February 14, and sentenced to be executed that afternoon. Valentine himself had fallen in love with the jailer's daughter and before his death he signed his final note to her...

"From your Valentine."

-taken directly from this article in my mobile.

sweet, yet creepy.

so where did Islam come about in this piece?

how tepung can save your a$$.

2011-02-08T20:59:00.000-08:00

beberapa ketika ni, solehah mengalami kesempitan.

makanan makin hari, makin habis. wang tak masuk2 lagi. nak kata ikat perut, boroi jugak. jadi tak boleh nak guna ayat tu.

selama kesempitan ni, solehah banyak terhutang budi dengan tepung (gandum).

solehah berjaya buat kek
solehah berjaya buat biskut
solehah berjaya buat mee (kindof? bahahaha)
solehah berjaya buat jemput2

mulai sekarang, solehah akan pastikan solehah ada satu kampit tepung gandum. tak tahu bila lagi akan susah. at least boleh juga makan.

terima kasih tepung. jasamu dikenang.

sedih sedih sedih

2011-02-03T05:09:00.000-08:00

homesick gila. T___T

pecah genap versi blogspot

2011-02-02T09:18:00.001-08:00

tribute kepada chris medina.

lelaki idaman gadis2 pelbagai peringkat umur di luar sana.
pilihan ibu2 dan bapa2 mertua.

siapa chris medina?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-BtuB8xZHPE

hoyeah. lelaki sebenar.

awesome possum video. if you have the time, please see.

2011-02-01T18:09:00.000-08:00

encik brokoli bagi saya video yang sangat best ni.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-8508829219775301734&hl=en&emb=1#

sebelum ni, ditanah air - solehah tak pernah rasa benda2 macam ni.

bila dah duduk negara orang baru tahu magnitud sebenar. sebab solehah selalu je kena maki, kena caci, kena pandang pandangan pelik2, kena kacau, kena tegur, diberi ceramah dan orang kata "jesus loves you" dimuka solehah, kena ludah pun ada.

antara sedikit benda2 yang solehah dah rasa selama tak sampai setahun di sini.

and i wouldn't trade my experiences for the world.

matahari

me gusta.

sobs.

friendship.

spider panggang.

if i could only cry, i would have.

kawen, kawen, kawen!

i can't wrap my mind around it.

nak tanya!

perasaan riak dan takkabbur itu sifat2 yang tidak baik! sifat mazmumah ya kawan2!

cerita2 diwaktu tenghari bumi ostolia.

sobs, sedih tau macam ni.

otak ku merespon pada detik2 cemas.

dear you,

tattoos and run.

Signs.

a phase in life.

Someone Like You.

dear diary,

You pretend it doesn't bother you, but you just want to explode...!

dear diary,

tak puas hati malam2.

apa salah berkawan dengan ex?

emotional roller-coasters.

sebab nak buat kerja,

g to the j.

selama beberapa hari ini, solehah ada jumpa sesuatu.

sobby sob sob.

solehah kopi pes status orang yang baru berkahwin.

staus orang baru kawen.

kalau aku dah kawen nanti.

kenapa ada masalah ini?

lagi lagi cerita kahwin.

hello semua.

hate hate hate.

duhai anak2 bangsa.

hi.

thank you.

dense feeling is dense.

oh lord,

orang mesti nak kata aku macam ni sebab aku tak ada cinta. bukan bro. kalau aku bercinta pun tak macam ni. oh, aku juga benci lelaki romantis, fyi.

benci

speaking of the western culture.

calon calon suami, mana anda?

cancelling out the feeling.

tadi terjumpa video ni. macam tersingkap kisah lama pula.

coles penyelamat jiwa raga aku doh.

taylor swift kalah. hands down.

si cinonet.

wangi lah ehem saya!

go solehah go!

To whom it may concern;

when the whole world makes you suicidal, you're there to hold me tight and say everything will be alright. thanks awak. thanks sangat sangat.

solehah makin lama makin pekak. kot? ke sebab bunyi air yang kuat sangat. tu lah. nak bercakap sambil basuh pinggan. siapa suruh!!

memandangkan aku dah off wall dekat fesbuk, dan malas nak annoy orang kat home mereka lagi, serta tak layan sangat twitter mitter ni, aku meroyan la..

selamat pagi!

a glimpse of the past

dear solehah;

s o l e h a h

definitely, maybe.

konklusi

ceghita malam malam

kenapa solehah tak pernah tulis lagu?

hari ini hari guru, tapi entry ini untuk mama.

OMAIGADDDDD

we're invincible

hello.

ma, ayah...

14/4/2011 - 27/4/2011

teri chunariyaaaaaa dil le gayiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

wah?

tak ada sensitiviti langsung

haveeeeeeee you had that moment...

i'm rude just because you started it first!

pray - justin bieber

we're getting there.

sobs.

a little goes a long way.

i'm that more closer to you. *insert smiley gay face here*

tak boleh balik sobs sobs

i'm that more closer to you. insert smiley gay face here